Blog!

I had the idea to start a project website for my partner for our anniversary, and yet I haven't even finished the pages for this website. Honestly it irks me how much i desire organization for myself, but how much I love a messy internet page full of life. I'm trying to force myself out of my comfort zone. I've been viewing a few websites for inspiration while taking inspiration from none of them. I want to vlog, I want to go to the park, I want to be whimsical and fun and full of life. I'm able-bodied, but my mind suffers greatly from how much information is constantly flowing in and out of it. I hate run-on sentences, but my brain thinks in them. I may have ADHD but I'm not diagnosed. I'm definitely autistic. Let's go autistic baddies!!

I used to use notion but, turns out I can't make it do what I want or look how I want. With a website, I can. And my data isn't being sold on here. Honestly if anything I post here gets adverstised to me somehow, I don't think I'll be upset. Of course one should never post onto the internet any information that they don't want shared in the first place, but I don't blame the average person for being upset that there phone keeps giving them cat food ads when they only ever thought about cat food once.

It's rough being a creative, neurodivergent mind. My brain and my words just vomit everywhere I go. I fear that I annoy my friends because I cannot stop talking. It's funny because in highschool I was mostly nonverbal. I very very rarely spoke as a child, but I would write poems and stories and text my friends for hours. Constantly afraid that they are silently judging me. Looking back now, I KNOW that they were judging me because I WAS an annoying 13 year old. 13 year olds are supposed to be annoying though, so that's nothing to be ashamed of. To be cringe is to be free. And boy, am I living wild and free, like our hero Spirit, stallion of the cimarron. What is a cimarron anyways? I want to go there.

I love speakinng like a chikld, just to feel something. In that I mean that I like to speak without a filter (not the kind where I say unkind or rude things) but the kind where I speak my heart freely and spread my ideas to the world. I let others know what I'm thinking, what I'm feeling, what I want to share with those I care for. It's not about me, it's not about talking about me. I don't like to talk about people or mhyself, I like to talk about ideas and facts and niche topics, I love to share knowledge. I will not become a teacher. They do not get paid enough, God bless 'em.'

Idk where else to put this rn cuz at the moment I only have 2 pages up, so I will place it here for now cuz I need a reference guide.

Page of links on the internet to refer back to (i.e. pet sites, fun websites, old internet, useful information, an archive of artistic websites, etc.)

Book reading list since that is short af

archive of photos taken with my film camera

magic the gathering decks I've built (with assistance from my lovely partner)

Hobbies/interests page (horse life/roblox, minecraft, favorite anime cuz i have like 3, favorite tv shows, favorite characters)(I could make like a mini bio for the characters)(Look for character pages on tumblr or something).

Blog ideas

What it's like being a barista

Talk about old websites/petsites I used to use (that are still up and freaking running btw like what the hell).

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